04 September, 2010

Broken Love.

It's a beautiful evening,
A dark one indeed,
Just the black blanket spread out,
Spotted with glittering diamonds.

Just you & me,
The biting cold,
But I'm warm inside.

I want to scream,
I want to talk,
But of what?

I feel so complete,
I'm not left out,
I'm by your side,
I'm definitely happy & full of life.

Silence suddenly seems better than words,
Are we on the edge?.. I wonder.
I look into your eyes,
I see them look worried,
But of what?

I speak out.. Is everything okay?
You clasp my hand,
I feel so beautiful,
I look up at you,
And see you have something to say.
Go on, I speak out.

Your a marvel,
A piece of art,
Till you say.. I'm sorry, but we can't go on.
Thousand questions run through my head,
I feel dizzy, had the lightning struck?
I'm not furious though, I just ask you why.

You say, I've got to move on.. Your hindering me.
I'm taken aback, I feel whipped by the cruelty in your words,
I stand there..
Holding you tight, never wanting to let go,
I look up at you,
I realize your a marvel.
I finally speak out, in a tear-filled voice,
What are we doing next?
With no mercy, you say, move on.

You free yourself from my clasp,
I collapse,
You provide no solace, no warmth, no comfort,
You just walk away, leaving me behind.

I gather myself, stand up straight,
And walk aimlessly,
No idea where I was heading,
Filled with your thoughts,
Whipped by your cruelty.

I finally reach home,
Head to my room,
Nobody's home,
I turn to myself for strength,
Fall on he bed,
Clasp my pillow,
And cry till I fall asleep.

I wake up around mid-night,
And try to wonder what went wrong,
I come up with none,
I tell myself it's over,
And again, cry myself to sleep,
It's my lullaby.

A bright sun,
Wakes me up,
A bustling world,
An optimistic day,
A beautiful lifetime ahead.

I force your thoughts out of my head,
Brush, shower & get dressed,
I walk out a noon,
And walk into the woods,
Where we last met.

Candy wrappers still lay there,
Your abandoned jacket too,
I pick up your jacket,
And tug at it hard,
Till I can feel your warmth.

I suddenly realize your hypocrisy,
I realize your selfishness,
I'm boist with confidence,
I walk upto your home,
4 miles away,
Holding your jacket & letting it sway with the wind.

I reach your doorstep,
Your taken aback to see me,
You ask me to come in,
I peep in & decide I'd rather move.
I speak out.. No, it's okay. Just came to return your jacket. I've got to MOVE ON.

I'm taken aback at what I just said,
You look astonished,
You say.. If you want, maybe.. We could take another chance.
I force a smile, look into your eyes & barely manage to be heard,
But the words come out, strong & confident,
I'm nobody's second choice, baby. You should have made me a priority & not an option.

I see the suprise on your face,
I can feel some joy inside me,
The cruelty of my words whipped you,
Just the way yours whipped me.

I step forward & give you a hug,
The hug lasts a few seconds,
My eyes are teary,
I face you to say the last rites..Goodbye.
You say the same, your words barely audible,
I turn around & walk the route back home.

I keep wondering how,
I could have said those words,
They were painfully strong,
Realistic & practically perfect.

AND! That's just when I realise,
How I said those words,
How I was strong to bear the pain,
How I refused my dream baby's second choice.

Well, it's no secret,
You gave me the strength,
Honey, you were my strength, my happiness & my realms of perfection,
But no longer.

Live Life To The Fullest!

Because you never know how much time you have left, and trying to cram a list of things into that unknown time can be futile. Instead, live every day to the fullest. Get the most out of life.

1. Who do I love, and what am I doing about it? When someone dies, you realize that you never know how much time you have with the people you love. They can go at any time — as can you. And so you must make the most of this time.

If you aren’t spending time with the people you love, change that. If you are holding a grudge against a family member, let it go and reconcile. If you’ve done something to hurt a loved one, ask for forgiveness. Drop the pride, and make up. If you haven’t seen someone in awhile, call them now to set up a date.

2. Am I pursuing my dream, or is fear stopping me? What have you always wanted to do? Maybe something you dreamed of as a child but have given up as unrealistic? Maybe something you still want to do but are afraid of failing? What fears are stopping you? And what would be the worst that could happen if you overcame those fears and pursued your dream?

If you’re already pursuing your dream, pat yourself on the back. You’re doing awesome!

3. Am I doing something that matters? There’s a difference between doing work, and doing work that really matters. Much of the time, we use up the few days we have on this earth with busy-work, stuff that doesn’t make much difference, and that’s sadly a waste of our lives.

Recently on Dumb Little Man, writer Ali Hale suggested you ask yourself, “Will this matter in five years?” I think this is a great question. It helps you distinguish between trivial busy-work that will take up all of your time but not matter in a few years, and tasks and projects and goals with high impact that will make a difference, in your career, in your life, in the lives of others.

4. What am I doing to help others? Kind of ironically, you get the most out of life not just by taking what you can for yourself, but by giving to others. What have you done lately to help people out? Have you been kind to people? Have you been compassionate? Have you been there for anyone? Listened? Volunteered for those in need? If you’re not doing anything to help others, this is a good time to figure out one thing you can do for someone, and put it into action. Ask this question on a regular basis, and you’ll make kindness a habit.

“Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.” – Albert Einstein

5. Am I as good a person as I want to be? I ask this of myself all the time. Sometimes, when I’m impatient or selfish or less-than-helpful, I think back on what I’ve said and done and realize that I could have done better. Instead of beating myself up about it, I endeavor to try harder, to remember to allow my better angels to guide me, to rise above the trivialities of life to a higher plane.

It’s not easy to be a good person, at least not all of the time. It’s easier to be selfish, without thinking about it. But is that how you want to be remembered? Is that how you want to live your life? Give it some thought, and act accordingly.

6. What am I doing to live life with passion, health and energy? You can do all the right things, and yet live a life that’s dull and sluggish. If you let your health go, you will have little energy and you will waste the minutes you have left on illness. Instead, learn to live a healthy life, with good foods and exercise. This will lead to more energy in your life. And then direct that energy into something you’re passionate about. If you haven’t found that passion (or passions), start looking. You’ll thank me. :)

“We are always getting ready to live but never living.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

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02 September, 2010

My Sister :)

An enviable bond we share,
A great age difference too,
Loads of love & hatred too,
Fight we do & cuddle too,
I wanted to be her first in everything,
Teacher, friend, love, enemy, sweetheart..
But what is the bond we share in reality?
You must have guessed by now,
Yes, she's my sister,
My angel, my devil, someone I look upto inspite of her innocence,
There have been times I wish I'd not prayed for a sister & there are times when I can't thank the Lord enough!

Yes, we share an enviable bond,
One full of innocence, love, hatred, dominance & fights,
There have been times when I'm low & wait for her words of wisdom & reciprocate, I do too.
Whatever we do, inspite of how much we love or hate each other,
One thing will never change..
She my sister, only MINE & I will love her for that. 

Abi :)

27 August, 2010

L.I.F.E :) ! .. ♥ :)

Life's a beautiful gift from the Almighty. It has to be lived to it's fullest worth. Each person has the right to live life the way they want to, but always remember to live without regrets.. Because twenty years from now, you'll be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than the things that you did. So, EXPLORE. DREAM. DISCOVER.
There are no mistakes in life, only lessons. Always love yourself, trust your choice & EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. To accomplish great things in life, we must not only ACT, but also DREAM, not only PLAN, but also BELIEVE.
Never be afraid to cry. Your tears are only warm drops of light that remind you how to feel. Do not be afraid to laugh, for that is the sound of a world that cares. Do not be afraid to care. It is only by caring that you do what must be done. Never ever be afraid to STAND OUT.
There are many ways to live life. You can fall in love or fall in hate, you can get depressed or you can get inspired. You can ace a test or flunk a class. You can speak the truth or lie & cheat. You can dance on the tables or sit in a corner. Life is divine chaos. EMBRACE IT. FORGIVE YOURSELF. Breathe.. And enjoy the ride. The choice is yours.
I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will even forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. MAKE PEOPLE FEEL LOVED. Let them know that they are cared for & that they are special. Cause sometimes, all that a person needs is a hand to hold & a heart to understand. :)..
Life lives, Life dies. Life laughs, Life cries. Life gives up & Life tries. All I'm trying to say is that life looks different through everyone's eyes. So, NEVER UNDERESTIMATE the potential in a person. Let everyone live life to the best of their capabilities.
Learn from failures. Always keep trying, for the greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising everytime we fall. Make mistakes, but always remember that FAILURE IS AN EVENT & IT IS NOT YOU.
I've loved my life, I've lived it, I've lied, I've hurt people, I've lost & gained, I've trusted, I've been betrayed.. Yes, I've made mistakes. Most of all, I'VE LEARNED FROM MY MISTAKES.
I believe that everything happens for a reason. But then, I can't find the reason in some cases. At such times, I just tell myself that what's done is done. YOU HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD IN LIFE. You can't keep looking back. After all, it's just a chapter in the past. But don't close the book, just turn the page.
NEVER COMPLAIN ABOUT TROUBLES. For they are not troubles, but CHALLENGES. Challenges are what makes life interesting. And it is only overcoming them that makes life meaningful. So, face challenges, show it what your made of!
Learn to be contended with what you have, but NEVER STOP DREAMING. There is nothing wrong with wanting more.
Sometimes in life, you do not get what you want & you get things that you can't believe to possess. LIFE IS FULL OF SURPRISES. You never know how much you'll miss something, until you lose it. So, hold on to your loved ones & things that are important to you.
Never predict your future. Just CREATE IT.
In this world, you can be anybody. You can be a Marilyn Monroe, a Mother Teresa, a Mukesh Ambani, a Ratan Tata, a Sachin Tendulkar.. But why be somebody else, when you can BE YOURSELF? Be a first rate version of yourself, not a second rate version of somebody else!
Want to know how to be yourself, if your not accepted as you?  Be who you are & say what you feel, because THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER & THOSE WHO MATTER DON'T MIND.
We are who we are for a lot of reasons, & maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can feel good about them. ♥
Some pursue happiness, others create it. Belong to the latter & SHARE YOUR JOY with others!
ALWAYS CHOOSE.. to live by choice, not chance; to make changes, not excuses; to be be motivated, not manipulated; to be useful, not used; to excel & not compete. Always choose to have self-esteem & not self-pity. CHOOSE TO LISTEN TO YOUR INNER VOICE & not the random opinions of others.
You have THREE CHOICES: give in, give up or GIVE IT YOUR ALL.
Life is never easy; it isn't about finding who you are, but CREATING WHO YOU WANT TO BE. The most important things in life aren't things. You are more important than them. Make the important a PRIORITY in your life & not an option. Every story has an end; but in life, there are no ends.. Just beginnings.
Sometimes in life, you have to hit the lowest point of being sad, where you can't take it anymore & you completely lose yourself, to get back on your feet again. Without fear, there would be no accomplishment & no testing our limitations. FACE FEAR & THE FEAR WILL VANISH.
Don't dwell on the past. Your history can't be erased, but your future has yet to be written. MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN, instead of worrying about what you can't change. Don't waste your time being sad, because your wasting away moments in which you could BE HAPPY.
Always LIVE LIFE, A DAY AT A TIME. Do not grieve over the past for it has gone; & do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. LIVE IN THE PRESENT, & make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
NEVER BE AFRAID TO TAKE CHANCES. Life is about trusting our feelings & taking chances, losing & finding happiness, appreciating memories & learning from the past. In life, it doesn't matter how long you take to get where you want, as long as you get there.
The purpose of life is to live it, to TASTE EXPERIENCE to the utmost, to reach out eagerly & without fear for newer & richer experiences.Always remember that who you are is more important than what you look like. The beauty inside will never equal the made-up beauty outside. FEEL BEAUTIFUL, & you will eventually end up looking beautiful. :)
If life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, brood or be sad, show life that you have a thousand reasons to SMILE.
I'd like to end by saying that life comes with no guarantee, no time outs & no second chance. You just have to LIVE life to the fullest, LAUGH as much as you can, spend money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, DANCE in the pouring rain, HOLD someone's hand, comfort a FRIEND, have fun, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, SMILE until your face hurts, don't be AFRAID to take chances or fall in LOVE.. & most of all, live in the moment, cause when you look back someday, knowing you have NO REGRETS, it's going to be that what's going to make you smile! :)

Loving you all (♥),
Abi :)

24 May, 2010

My Nephew

A special bond we share,
One without fights, grudges & hatred,
But a beautiful relationship filled with love, innocence, kisses & bites!
He hits me, but it doesn't hurt,
His way of expressing love touches my heart,
I'm on the verge of tears when he's hurt,
I'm myself when I'm with him,
Comfortable in my skin,
I'm not judged, but loved irrespective of my flaws,
He's the naughtiest kid I've known,
But, why in the world would my love lessen because of that?!
At the age of 1.5, he's taught me to be myself, to have fun & to be responsible!
I'm not embarrased when he calls me 'Chithi',
But a feeling of pride, joy & love fills my heart!
He's a beautiful addition to our already beautiful family,
He steals my heart just like Krishna stealing butter!
Irrespective of how insane my poem sounds, I don't care, Cause I've heard that love drives you insane,
And that's what his love & mesmerizing smile have done to me,