04 September, 2010

Broken Love.

It's a beautiful evening,
A dark one indeed,
Just the black blanket spread out,
Spotted with glittering diamonds.

Just you & me,
The biting cold,
But I'm warm inside.

I want to scream,
I want to talk,
But of what?

I feel so complete,
I'm not left out,
I'm by your side,
I'm definitely happy & full of life.

Silence suddenly seems better than words,
Are we on the edge?.. I wonder.
I look into your eyes,
I see them look worried,
But of what?

I speak out.. Is everything okay?
You clasp my hand,
I feel so beautiful,
I look up at you,
And see you have something to say.
Go on, I speak out.

Your a marvel,
A piece of art,
Till you say.. I'm sorry, but we can't go on.
Thousand questions run through my head,
I feel dizzy, had the lightning struck?
I'm not furious though, I just ask you why.

You say, I've got to move on.. Your hindering me.
I'm taken aback, I feel whipped by the cruelty in your words,
I stand there..
Holding you tight, never wanting to let go,
I look up at you,
I realize your a marvel.
I finally speak out, in a tear-filled voice,
What are we doing next?
With no mercy, you say, move on.

You free yourself from my clasp,
I collapse,
You provide no solace, no warmth, no comfort,
You just walk away, leaving me behind.

I gather myself, stand up straight,
And walk aimlessly,
No idea where I was heading,
Filled with your thoughts,
Whipped by your cruelty.

I finally reach home,
Head to my room,
Nobody's home,
I turn to myself for strength,
Fall on he bed,
Clasp my pillow,
And cry till I fall asleep.

I wake up around mid-night,
And try to wonder what went wrong,
I come up with none,
I tell myself it's over,
And again, cry myself to sleep,
It's my lullaby.

A bright sun,
Wakes me up,
A bustling world,
An optimistic day,
A beautiful lifetime ahead.

I force your thoughts out of my head,
Brush, shower & get dressed,
I walk out a noon,
And walk into the woods,
Where we last met.

Candy wrappers still lay there,
Your abandoned jacket too,
I pick up your jacket,
And tug at it hard,
Till I can feel your warmth.

I suddenly realize your hypocrisy,
I realize your selfishness,
I'm boist with confidence,
I walk upto your home,
4 miles away,
Holding your jacket & letting it sway with the wind.

I reach your doorstep,
Your taken aback to see me,
You ask me to come in,
I peep in & decide I'd rather move.
I speak out.. No, it's okay. Just came to return your jacket. I've got to MOVE ON.

I'm taken aback at what I just said,
You look astonished,
You say.. If you want, maybe.. We could take another chance.
I force a smile, look into your eyes & barely manage to be heard,
But the words come out, strong & confident,
I'm nobody's second choice, baby. You should have made me a priority & not an option.

I see the suprise on your face,
I can feel some joy inside me,
The cruelty of my words whipped you,
Just the way yours whipped me.

I step forward & give you a hug,
The hug lasts a few seconds,
My eyes are teary,
I face you to say the last rites..Goodbye.
You say the same, your words barely audible,
I turn around & walk the route back home.

I keep wondering how,
I could have said those words,
They were painfully strong,
Realistic & practically perfect.

AND! That's just when I realise,
How I said those words,
How I was strong to bear the pain,
How I refused my dream baby's second choice.

Well, it's no secret,
You gave me the strength,
Honey, you were my strength, my happiness & my realms of perfection,
But no longer.

Live Life To The Fullest!

Because you never know how much time you have left, and trying to cram a list of things into that unknown time can be futile. Instead, live every day to the fullest. Get the most out of life.

1. Who do I love, and what am I doing about it? When someone dies, you realize that you never know how much time you have with the people you love. They can go at any time — as can you. And so you must make the most of this time.

If you aren’t spending time with the people you love, change that. If you are holding a grudge against a family member, let it go and reconcile. If you’ve done something to hurt a loved one, ask for forgiveness. Drop the pride, and make up. If you haven’t seen someone in awhile, call them now to set up a date.

2. Am I pursuing my dream, or is fear stopping me? What have you always wanted to do? Maybe something you dreamed of as a child but have given up as unrealistic? Maybe something you still want to do but are afraid of failing? What fears are stopping you? And what would be the worst that could happen if you overcame those fears and pursued your dream?

If you’re already pursuing your dream, pat yourself on the back. You’re doing awesome!

3. Am I doing something that matters? There’s a difference between doing work, and doing work that really matters. Much of the time, we use up the few days we have on this earth with busy-work, stuff that doesn’t make much difference, and that’s sadly a waste of our lives.

Recently on Dumb Little Man, writer Ali Hale suggested you ask yourself, “Will this matter in five years?” I think this is a great question. It helps you distinguish between trivial busy-work that will take up all of your time but not matter in a few years, and tasks and projects and goals with high impact that will make a difference, in your career, in your life, in the lives of others.

4. What am I doing to help others? Kind of ironically, you get the most out of life not just by taking what you can for yourself, but by giving to others. What have you done lately to help people out? Have you been kind to people? Have you been compassionate? Have you been there for anyone? Listened? Volunteered for those in need? If you’re not doing anything to help others, this is a good time to figure out one thing you can do for someone, and put it into action. Ask this question on a regular basis, and you’ll make kindness a habit.

“Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.” – Albert Einstein

5. Am I as good a person as I want to be? I ask this of myself all the time. Sometimes, when I’m impatient or selfish or less-than-helpful, I think back on what I’ve said and done and realize that I could have done better. Instead of beating myself up about it, I endeavor to try harder, to remember to allow my better angels to guide me, to rise above the trivialities of life to a higher plane.

It’s not easy to be a good person, at least not all of the time. It’s easier to be selfish, without thinking about it. But is that how you want to be remembered? Is that how you want to live your life? Give it some thought, and act accordingly.

6. What am I doing to live life with passion, health and energy? You can do all the right things, and yet live a life that’s dull and sluggish. If you let your health go, you will have little energy and you will waste the minutes you have left on illness. Instead, learn to live a healthy life, with good foods and exercise. This will lead to more energy in your life. And then direct that energy into something you’re passionate about. If you haven’t found that passion (or passions), start looking. You’ll thank me. :)

“We are always getting ready to live but never living.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

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02 September, 2010

My Sister :)

An enviable bond we share,
A great age difference too,
Loads of love & hatred too,
Fight we do & cuddle too,
I wanted to be her first in everything,
Teacher, friend, love, enemy, sweetheart..
But what is the bond we share in reality?
You must have guessed by now,
Yes, she's my sister,
My angel, my devil, someone I look upto inspite of her innocence,
There have been times I wish I'd not prayed for a sister & there are times when I can't thank the Lord enough!

Yes, we share an enviable bond,
One full of innocence, love, hatred, dominance & fights,
There have been times when I'm low & wait for her words of wisdom & reciprocate, I do too.
Whatever we do, inspite of how much we love or hate each other,
One thing will never change..
She my sister, only MINE & I will love her for that. 

Abi :)